Thoughts and Ponderings


I think I'll use this page to truly embarrass myself, and as the main canvas upon which I will do the brain smearing. Don't be surprised if this stuff makes no sense or is utterly stooopid.


Let me first say that if you were brave enough to come this far, you are truly a worthless human being, and you have way too much time on your hands and you're wasting it on this mindless drabble. BUT... since you're already here..let's explore some thoughts and hopefully better ourselves through understanding as I see it. And how I see it, it's always right, but that's just my opinion I could be wrong. Most of the people ( both of you ) who have come here and scrolled through this site are sighing comments under their breath that can only be described as ignorant. All they see is a bunch of pictures and animations, and the color scheme / design layout. For them the verdict is clear. The judgement has been made. But what they are not thinking of is WHY this all looks the way it does. Will they ask themselves this question? Probably not. Most people use their basic 5 senses, ( or 6 if you're weird like that) but they don't use their brain muscles to make sense out of it. Most people take everything at face value. Here is a cheap example. You have 10 dollars, whats that mean to you? Beer money? Dinner? A couple packs of smokes? Or is it just 10 one dollar bills? Now look at it this way. You have 10 dollars.... you get paid 5 dollars an hour...that 10 dollars is worth 2 hours of your life. What else could you have done with that 2 hours? Would you use it to find a job that paid more? Would you have been willing to spend that 10 dollars just to not have to go to work for those 2 hours? See where I'm going with this? I'm just making a point. Things are never what they seem. Motivation is everything. Everyone goes to work so they can afford a car....to take them to work! And to buy food....because they are too busy working to grow their own, and to buy a TV...because they only have time for mindless entertainment. And they buy worthless junk...because the TV says they need it. If this kind of thinking were acted upon, say....alot of people just dropped out and started living off the land...the government would have a fit. Sure we're all free...just as long as we make our payments on time, otherwise they revoke our freedom. income = outcome. What I take in ..ends up going out. that said...TAXES........we all hate em, but we all pay em too. Not because we pride ourselves on being good little Americans...but because we don't like the federal prision system enough to want to take up residence there. I go to work and I trade time and skill for little green and black paper. Then I trade the paper for food, lodging, expenses, ETC. I'm breaking even, that's not income....I could go work on a farm and earn my food directly, and then go help out at the electric company. And never have to deal with money again. But we all know that won't work...if one hour's work was truly valuable, then I could probably pull it off....but to pay just the electric bill would mean I'd have to work there a week straight. And my point? I don't know...do I have to have one? I guess I'm saying that back in the day...everyone was trying to make all this economy stuff work....alot of trial and error....but no one realized that it was seriously flawed. And the people who would gain from all of this didn't care anyway....they saw an opportunity to excel and took it, without a seconds thought of what the real price was.We as a species have lost our ability to survive on our own, and we rely on a vulnerable system to supply our needs. a system fueled by wants. We sell out to whoever has what we want. I'm sure I'm gonna get alot of critics reading this and they are not going to agree. I'm not even going to argue it with them. I haven't the energy to fight anymore..all i can do is write it down ....put it in a bottle and cast it away, and hope someone gets what i'm talking about. this entire topic is too deep to discuss in and real detail. it involves human perception, drive, motive, fears, dreams, and shortcomings. and god knows what else. Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. I'll try to touch on some more topics related to this in the future. "Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off."









And now for something completely different......How about IDIOTS. Yes Idiots...you know em...they're those people who believe everything they hear. And on top of that...it seems that survival of the fittest has gone away. now there are laws protecting the lame of mind. laws that enable them to not only thrive...but to mate and reproduce. Just read the small print at the bottom of the TV screen when there's a commercial on...or read the packaging on anything harmful, I never knew that Vagisil was not to be taken internally...Now what am i supposed to put on my Draino and dryer sheet sandwich? maybe i should use Comet instead.I mean come on...if you have the urge to see what Gasoline tastes like...then more power to ya....just scratch my name into your will before the party. and how about the warnings on things like cigarettes? ok..i understand that not everyone knows the specific dangers of smoking...but most people should realize that smoke is not so good to inhale. i mean really now people...did ya think cigarettes were chocked full of vitamins and minerals?..IT'S SMOKE!!!! SMOKE DAMMIT!!! think about it. firefighters have been avoiding it long enough to make a rather obvious statement. So here's a test for you....go find some really seemingly harmless ads and read the fine print and see just how stupid you have to be to try doing something like that....here's an example for ya...there was a commercial i saw for a car...it was called a tiberon...meaning SHARK. the commercial showed the car underwater zooming around like a shark. at the bottom of the screen in small print was this warning "SIMULATION, DO NOT DRIVE IN THE OCEAN". I bet someone out there actually needed to read that, Or they went out to buy the car and the dealer told em that it couldn't swim and the moron turned it down. either way...i say let em try it...we're not the descendants of the stoopid lazy fucks who got eaten by the dinosaurs....we're descended from the quick smart fucks that got away. and i know dinos and people weren't around at the same time...but it just sounded better that way. and heres a regional thing... DO you think anybody actually set out for tulsa? NO! If you were either too dumb or lazy to fix your wagon when it broke then you stayed right where you were... that's why it seems that all the not too bright people live in the back country. that is all